I pulled my coat around me tighter last night, hurrying along eight blocks of breezy, dark Brooklyn. Men gather in clusters outside of closed door fronts, eyeing the streets, watching passersby like me. Busses and cars whiz by on the street, mothers hurry children inside of the grocery. I slide into the bike shop ten minutes before they close, run my hand over the frame of my bike, the same one I used in Providence a year ago. An hour later, she’s all decked out and updated, I pinch a helmet under my chin and roll onto the street.
I’ve been learning patience lately. Getting settled in a new space and learning to be still brings so many anxieties and doubts to the surface. There are books to unpack, clothes to sort, blankets to buy before it becomes real winter. I want everything to get done now. But I’m realizing that isn’t how life works.Patience is the only way you make it through life in the middle. Patience is what makes faithfulness possible. So I take deep breaths in and make to do lists that more often than not, begin with “get coffee.” Sure, I’m already thinking about the summer, about internships and jobs, about money for next semester. I’m already thinking about graduating and what I’ll do next. I’m thinking about classes I’d like to teach one day. But for now, I’m steering my bike down a crisp Brooklyn street, just trying to make it home and make dinner.